Intrusive Dreams

Have you ever had those horrible – sometimes recurring – dreams where you feel stuck? I have three very specific ones that have happened enough times to where I feel comfortable saying I hate them.

The first one is that I’m running, usually along a dirt road, but I keep falling down. Each time I fall down, I can’t get all the way back up, until eventually I can’t move.

The second one is that my teeth are falling out. However, I never end up completely toothless because hundreds (okay, maybe dozens) of teeth keep magically appearing in my mouth and I can’t spit them all out fast enough.

The third one has happened the most. In this dream, I’m the same age I am now, but I have to go back to high school and finish one last semester of school – usually one (or all) of the same classes (Spanish, History, and Science…sometimes Math) – but I have to finish them in an absurdly short amount of time, like two days. And, until I finish those classes, my degrees don’t count…and my high school diploma doesn’t count. I also usually get lost because the school always has a different layout. Sometimes I even live back at my parents’ house with my two older sisters and we have to carpool, or I’m driving my 1982 Volkswagen Rabbit (my very first car) that magically still runs, although in my dream I also have anxiety that it won’t start.

I’m well aware these are my insecurity dreams and they aren’t real, but, man, do they suck.